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Roger Taylor, Queen’s drummer, album cover, Fun in space.

Roger Taylor, Queen’s drummer, album cover, Fun in space.

Oliver explores the kitchen, he knocked one candle holder over, but I caught it. 

Oliver explores the kitchen, he knocked one candle holder over, but I caught it. 

Oliver, 11 weeks old. we let them explore most of the house today. 

Oliver, 11 weeks old. we let them explore most of the house today. 

got kittens. there will be more pics. they move fast. I have a lot of blurry photos. 

got kittens. there will be more pics. they move fast. I have a lot of blurry photos. 

Rest in peace, weary traveller.
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I’ve given some thought to the premature passing of Robin Williams, and look at it like this; here was a man who’s mind seemed never to shut off, people say the only thing faster than his mouth was his mind, but who else who ever mounted a comedy stage was as quick witted?  I don’t think anyone.  He was like a be-bop jazz musician, thinking and improvising so fast you can’t even understand it all unless you slow it down and examine every note. but it’s easier with music, there’s only 12 notes, and you don’t have to be funny, it just has to sound good.
It’s as if his brain was set at a higher metabolic rate than anyone else’s. Had his gift been for math rather than comedy, he would have been another Einstein, and so calling him a comic genius is something no one would ever dispute, and people always complain when someone in the arts is called a genius. He lived so fast, intellectually, he packed more life into 63 years than most could ever hope to given 4 times as many years, or more. 
   It’s astonishingly sad to consider he made it to 63, which is not young, and at that age succumbed to depression. but such an astonishing outpouring of positivity, of humour, selflessness and love, was evidently mirrored within, on the other side, by an equal and opposite force which he repressed so the world, and his friends could not see it. Imagine such an insurmountable wall of darkness, the scale of it must have been unfathomable, considering the effort he put in to keep it at bay. His friends said he was “always on”, always, offstage the same as on, joking ceaselessly, ultimately, like Sisyphus, eternally pushing a giant boulder up an endless hill, after 63 years, he finally ran out of steam. 
It’s natural to feel some anger at people who commit suicide, you’re entitled to that feeling, for a while. It’s normal, don’t be ashamed of it. How could they do that to you? They didn’t do it to you, they just couldn’t take it anymore. No amount of adoration, the whole world loved him, no amount of wealth, he certainly wanted for nothing material, not even familial love, can necessarily overcome the power of depression to crush a person’s will to live. Mourn the loss, and continue to live. Remember the positive contributions that were made, and celebrate them. Whether you believe or not in an afterlife, or reincarnation, people live on, in your memory of them, and in what they left behind, so hang on to the good parts of that, and forgive them. 
In the case of Robin Williams, he left behind hours and hours of entertainment, which is going to make you laugh and cry again and again, celebrate his legacy and cherish it. Just looking on youtube it seems like there are endless clips and very long concerts, I wonder if I’ll ever see them all. No rush, a little bit now and again to help brighten up life from time to time is a good thing. 
If you know someone you think is suffering from depression, reach out however you can. Maybe don’t say “hey you seem depressed, you aren’t planning to kill yourself or anything, are you?” instead maybe just be nice, hang out with them and have a good time. That might be enough, or it might be all you can do. If they’re clearly depressed, maybe you should address it directly. Let them know it’s obvious things are not ok with them, and you want to help, because you love them. Use your judgement. 
"You’re only given a little spark of madness. You mustn’t lose it." 

Rest in peace, weary traveller.

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I’ve given some thought to the premature passing of Robin Williams, and look at it like this; here was a man who’s mind seemed never to shut off, people say the only thing faster than his mouth was his mind, but who else who ever mounted a comedy stage was as quick witted?  I don’t think anyone.  He was like a be-bop jazz musician, thinking and improvising so fast you can’t even understand it all unless you slow it down and examine every note. but it’s easier with music, there’s only 12 notes, and you don’t have to be funny, it just has to sound good.

It’s as if his brain was set at a higher metabolic rate than anyone else’s. Had his gift been for math rather than comedy, he would have been another Einstein, and so calling him a comic genius is something no one would ever dispute, and people always complain when someone in the arts is called a genius. He lived so fast, intellectually, he packed more life into 63 years than most could ever hope to given 4 times as many years, or more. 

   It’s astonishingly sad to consider he made it to 63, which is not young, and at that age succumbed to depression. but such an astonishing outpouring of positivity, of humour, selflessness and love, was evidently mirrored within, on the other side, by an equal and opposite force which he repressed so the world, and his friends could not see it. Imagine such an insurmountable wall of darkness, the scale of it must have been unfathomable, considering the effort he put in to keep it at bay. His friends said he was “always on”, always, offstage the same as on, joking ceaselessly, ultimately, like Sisyphus, eternally pushing a giant boulder up an endless hill, after 63 years, he finally ran out of steam. 

It’s natural to feel some anger at people who commit suicide, you’re entitled to that feeling, for a while. It’s normal, don’t be ashamed of it. How could they do that to you? They didn’t do it to you, they just couldn’t take it anymore. No amount of adoration, the whole world loved him, no amount of wealth, he certainly wanted for nothing material, not even familial love, can necessarily overcome the power of depression to crush a person’s will to live. Mourn the loss, and continue to live. Remember the positive contributions that were made, and celebrate them. Whether you believe or not in an afterlife, or reincarnation, people live on, in your memory of them, and in what they left behind, so hang on to the good parts of that, and forgive them. 

In the case of Robin Williams, he left behind hours and hours of entertainment, which is going to make you laugh and cry again and again, celebrate his legacy and cherish it. Just looking on youtube it seems like there are endless clips and very long concerts, I wonder if I’ll ever see them all. No rush, a little bit now and again to help brighten up life from time to time is a good thing. 

If you know someone you think is suffering from depression, reach out however you can. Maybe don’t say “hey you seem depressed, you aren’t planning to kill yourself or anything, are you?” instead maybe just be nice, hang out with them and have a good time. That might be enough, or it might be all you can do. If they’re clearly depressed, maybe you should address it directly. Let them know it’s obvious things are not ok with them, and you want to help, because you love them. Use your judgement. 

"You’re only given a little spark of madness. You mustn’t lose it." 

Fly, be free…
Robin Williams
Chris Eccleston/Bob Denver; separated at birth? something I’d thought for a while and was surprised to find no one else had posited online yet. although the Colin Hay one is good too.

Chris Eccleston/Bob Denver; separated at birth? something I’d thought for a while and was surprised to find no one else had posited online yet. although the Colin Hay one is good too.

you know I might not mind tumblr suggesting blogs to me so much, if it gave me the option to click something indicating I’m not interested in that blog they suggested. especially with the commercial posts. 

eatsleepdraw:

portrait of my father as a young doctor, pencil on paper, from a photo. see more of my work on my website mobiusbandwidth.com or at http://j-mobius.deviantart.com/gallery/

Much gratitude to eatsleepdraw for posting this, and I’m humbled by the number of likes and reblogs, I don’t have time to thank everyone individually, and that in itself is both happy and sad. 

eatsleepdraw:

portrait of my father as a young doctor, pencil on paper, from a photo. see more of my work on my website mobiusbandwidth.com or at http://j-mobius.deviantart.com/gallery/

Much gratitude to eatsleepdraw for posting this, and I’m humbled by the number of likes and reblogs, I don’t have time to thank everyone individually, and that in itself is both happy and sad. 

tumblr seems to be powered by snails lately, its it just me? takes forever to load, I get frustrated and give up.

I was curious if I could, so I taped my wacom pen to my erect penis and drew this self-portrait in profile on the tablet. I thought to myself, “watch me get famous for crappy drawings made with my shmeckle, but ignored for my skilled portraiture drawn with my hand.” d: I hate the word “penis”, what an unpleasant word. 
If you appreciate my art enough to download it, or just appreciate it, please consider making a small donation to me via my website 

http://www.mobiusbandwidth.com/index.html, scroll down to the paypal button and help support the arts, thank you. 

I was curious if I could, so I taped my wacom pen to my erect penis and drew this self-portrait in profile on the tablet. I thought to myself, “watch me get famous for crappy drawings made with my shmeckle, but ignored for my skilled portraiture drawn with my hand.” d: I hate the word “penis”, what an unpleasant word. 

If you appreciate my art enough to download it, or just appreciate it, please consider making a small donation to me via my website 

http://www.mobiusbandwidth.com/index.html, scroll down to the paypal button and help support the arts, thank you. 

seems like every 4th post in my tumblr feed is something they’re recommending to me to check out. not as bad as the adverts, and not as plentiful, but what are you saying tumblr, I don’t follow enough people? I think I do. you’re already a bottomless well of distraction as it is. 

page of doodles. pencil on blue paper actually, tweaked out the blue whilst scanning. http://j-mobius.deviantart.com/gallery/
http://www.mobiusbandwidth.com/index.html
If you appreciate my art enough to download it, or just appreciate it, please consider making a small donation to me via my website 
http://www.mobiusbandwidth.com/index.html, scroll down to the paypal button and help support the arts, thank you. 
just realising I wrote 2004 instead of 2014 on this. I should fix that probably. d:

page of doodles. pencil on blue paper actually, tweaked out the blue whilst scanning. http://j-mobius.deviantart.com/gallery/

http://www.mobiusbandwidth.com/index.html

If you appreciate my art enough to download it, or just appreciate it, please consider making a small donation to me via my website 

http://www.mobiusbandwidth.com/index.html, scroll down to the paypal button and help support the arts, thank you. 

just realising I wrote 2004 instead of 2014 on this. I should fix that probably. d:

t shirt design concept. http://j-mobius.deviantart.com/gallery/
http://www.mobiusbandwidth.com/index.html
If you appreciate my art enough to download it, or just appreciate it, please consider making a small donation to me via my website 
http://www.mobiusbandwidth.com/index.html, scroll down to the paypal button and help support the arts, thank you. 

t shirt design concept. http://j-mobius.deviantart.com/gallery/

http://www.mobiusbandwidth.com/index.html

If you appreciate my art enough to download it, or just appreciate it, please consider making a small donation to me via my website 

http://www.mobiusbandwidth.com/index.html, scroll down to the paypal button and help support the arts, thank you. 

original linework for a comic book cover, Punk rock alien space girl adventures. I’ll upload the coloured version later. 
http://j-mobius.deviantart.com/gallery/
http://www.mobiusbandwidth.com/index.html
If you appreciate my art enough to download it, or just appreciate it, please consider making a small donation to me via my website 
http://www.mobiusbandwidth.com/index.html, scroll down to the paypal button and help support the arts, thank you. 

original linework for a comic book cover, Punk rock alien space girl adventures. I’ll upload the coloured version later. 

http://j-mobius.deviantart.com/gallery/

http://www.mobiusbandwidth.com/index.html

If you appreciate my art enough to download it, or just appreciate it, please consider making a small donation to me via my website 

http://www.mobiusbandwidth.com/index.html, scroll down to the paypal button and help support the arts, thank you.